Stuck in Ohio

No video games, no computer(except for the moment), no television, no politics. Thank god for the politics, i couldnt handle this CIA nonsense. Unbelivable the nerve of these people. Only care about spending when it deals with the military, and only like the CIA when they think they can get a bush appointee fired. Partisan Hacks, thats all everyone is, no ability to see whats right or wrong. Not an objective bone in anyones body. Dems would vote for a child molester before theyd vote for a republican. anyways, im supposed to be free of that poppycock, and i have to admit, tis quite freeing.
Put on my anthrax tshirt, drank a Beer and mowed the lawn the other day. Felt good. Forgot about all the bugs here. At first it was cute, now its freakin me out. Havent really left the house for social buisness, so I havent seen anyone I knew growing up. I am thankful. Im over it, those people are part of another life to me. My first night, I was thrilled to be here, inhaling the lucious green atmosphere, the lightning bugs, mmmmmmmm. However, after a couple of nights, after seeing my grandma, I had a good cry. Shes hurt pretty bad. My last grandparent. I only knew two. My mothers parents. My fathers parents I never met. I know his dad died of lou gherigs disease. Scary stuff, hope it isnt hereditary. They have her tied down, so she doesnt remove the oxygen tube going into her throat. Took her months to get over her broken wrist. I can only imagine how long itd take her to get over a broken neck. Being in arizona, and coming home, are fresh reminders of how much time is actually passing. I dont want my already small family getting smaller. Shes a tough gal, if anyone can do it she can. One of my only friends, i still have from ohio is coming in tomorrow. it will be fun. i think about my girl alot. So much, its starting to bother me. things are awsome. Although shes never around to get my calls. i would call her every night if shed be available. god im lame. think shes probably just hanging out w her friends, its probably a relief. I know i get most of her time when im there. I have disciplined myself however, and i cant stand seeing myself obsess, so im going to have my phone turned off most of the time. she can fill her time w/o me so easily, and so can i. i just wish i had someone to talk to. I conditioned myself to be alone for so long, and counting on people can be addicting. I am very efficiant in solitude. ill jus talk to my livejournal. i cannot wait to c her. miss my cat. miss my place. dont miss my job, that place seems so far away thankfully, i havent even thought about it. I dunno, family, and ohio make me rattled. i just miss my family. going to cedar point tomorrow, a major roller coaster juggarnaut. one of the best, itll be fun. crazy stuff. Now, I am going to drink a beer or two and watch tv with my dad.....